Essence

Do you ever stop?
To say goodbye?
When the chips are low
When the cards are high?

Do your friends cry
When you let them go?
Can you feel the rush?
Can You feel the flow?

I've got the rip
I've got the roll
When I cast my bet
Life takes its toll

So hear me now
I've got to say
Feel it slip
And wash away.

My essence...So alone.

Like a blade in the dark
The gleam from the sheath
You here it slide forth
The Blow shatters your teeth

And in the nights Home
Where goodness resides
And wher eyou to listen
To whom he confides


Your mind it would shatter
Your world it would break
Things become hazy
Your hands begin to shake

So walk down the hallway
Deliver your plee
If your afraid
Run from me

Open

If i screamed your name
Into the pain of Night
If i held my life
If my soul lacked light

If i were a man
capable of love
If i held that promise
Would you still shove

Me away
From the light of day
To fear the Night
And limit my sight?

If i screamed your name
Into The anguish of day
Would you still stare
And laugh that way?

I dont know
Where im from
Where i was born
Am i just dumb?

Each day in passing
A light without a chance
My life is a lost cause
Its all just one last dance

If i screamed into the silence
Would you hear your name?
If i shouted at the echo's
Would life still be the same?

If the Ghost I sought
All turned away
Would you still shun me?
Would the light of day?

If i was born
Without fear
Would I know
WHy i was here?

Or is it fear
that lights my path
Is it terror?
I could just laugh

If i laughed into the void
Would you hear sorrows echo?
Its so cold now
Standing here alone

Without guidance
Without a home
I know the place
From where i came

But now its changed
Nothings the same
So now i cry
As i lose my name

If i had one chance
One shot at fame
To lose my doubts
And have one last dance...


One last dance, To hold you near
One Last dance, Without fear

Oh Were i to dance
The pain i'd stay
Were I to cry
I'd fade away

So shed not
A tear for me
Sleep well
And in glee

So now my friend
Call my name
Cast your spells
Try in vein

Pray to God
And try your pacts
Lose your logic
Forget your facts

I am gone
I've always been
If you look for me
You will not win

Im but an echo
On the winds of life
Gathering pain
Hoarding strife

And i know not
Why i feel this way
But i feel it often
Everyday

So heres the poem
Which plagues my soul
So drink my water
Empty my bowl

My throat
It fears no thirst
For the pain consumes
My throat will burst

Lost in the shadows
Of day and night
Without chaos
Without light

Order entraps me
When warmth i seek
Was i always this slender?
always so meek?

Ah the great challenge
Am i alive?
Should i give up?
or continue to strive

For all the things
In life we seek
For when sorrow calls
My bodies weak

So Call your demons
Profess your love
I fear the heavens
the light above

I seek the chaos
that makes me free
I seek disorder
But it eludes me

So here i sit
bathed in blood
My enemies slain
My sorrows flood

The gates Of my soul...
...Open

Halfway to hell

Sometimes....Death comes unannounced.
And if your not prepared
If your even a little scared
You'll end up prounounced

So stand strong, Dont let it get you
let out the fire inside
never run and hide
And in me confide

because when death shows up
three day's later
You'll be halfway to hell
with no indicater

of how you got there
or how to get back
And if you've got no clue
Yes, if you dont know jack

then i'll be there
WIth a grin on my face
To hold you close
our fingers to lace

I'll guide you
I'll walk you to the gates
Sometimes, You fear the fates
but when i step up
dont even flinch

I'll hold out
Especialy in a pinch
And when the pitch gets thrown
We'll be halfway home

Crisp

Crisp and cool
Like a razors edge
A cute so clean
Undone at the seem

Fall away
From the lightning strike
Your soul ignight
In burning flight

9 p.m.

A chilling tale
Where two world rift
A wanderer
Between you drift

But belong to them
You do not
Seperate
And long forgot

The difference clear
Between thine and them
Never clearer
At 9 PM

Alone

Left alone
We might now drift
Shapeless
We quietly sift

All alone
We fade away
Seemless
To a shade of gray

So alone
We know the score
Hopeless
Like ancient lore

Die alone
We will surely end
Regretfull
Our doubt we send